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I feel depressed. have been getting worse over the past months. im so tired and feel so out of it most of the time. cant concentrate properly, cant think properly. feel worthless and like i generlly suck. im so good at pretending things ar fine tho. part of the reason is that sometimes i am fine, someties i feel really gd and then it switches to really low-its hard to explain. during the day i seem to be able to manage it better but at night its been gettin so bad. i jsut want to be able to be left alone without feeling depressed. i hate myself for this and for being depressed cos i havent had anythin really bad happen to me so it not like i even have a reason to be depressed.
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1/11/09, 20:15
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2/11/09, 22:42
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Thanks for the link neo.
Yeah at the moment i do six and a half hours of exercise a week and im increasing that by about 2 or 3 hours cos i am going to the gym now. I am trying to keep busy and social but i feel myself becoming more and more out of touch with reality-like im there but not really? its weird. thank u for helpin me
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3/11/09, 22:13
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Yeh its kind of like that. sometimes its like im just watching everythin happen around me and im not part of it but im still observing it if u no what i mean? like im lookin at whats happening but its like im the only one who is? kind of like the other peple are all characters in a game and ur the player? i dont hav a clue what im on about. so hard to describe or explain. Im ok-had a better docs experience this afternoon but still didnt mention psych stuff. might tell u bout it later if ur online. can feel myself gettin lower but im concentrating on my interview prep tonight so hopefully wil keep me focused.
update-feelin lower
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4/11/09, 18:23
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I just dont get it. I have had a really pleasant weekend with a couple of housemates and actually felt happy. now im low as i was before and feelin really down and i just dont undestand why. Its like a cloud has come over me and i can feel myself gettin more and more depressed. I just dont know what to do. I want to be able to be along with my own mind and be ok but i cant. Im tired of it and when im by myself im having more and more times where i space out and its like there is a mental block and my memory is ****ing up and i keep geting bad thoughts and remembering bad times. I dont no whats happening to me. Im getting low so quickly now.
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8/11/09, 20:22
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i don't really have much more to say than scatty, but it's a good idea to see any other avenues to help - therapy/counselling/meds ?
hope you're ok
take care
claire xx
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10/11/09, 22:28
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Well done 