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6th form...
i just cant cope with it anymore im so behind cos of my attendance.. due to psychiatrist appointments.. psychologist appointments.. being ill.. and just being too scared to go in..
i cant cope with it.. i wish there was some way that i could have a break from it to try and sort myself out... but i cant.. if i stop going.. then my mums money from my dad stops.. my ema stops.. one of my mums benifits stops... my mum has trouble paying for everything anyway..
even before losing all that she has said that we r basically going to end up losing the house but i just cant cope with this... i really think that it would b better if i wasnt here.. then my mum could i dunno..live with someone else.. and she wouldnt have so much to pay for i try and help... she does borrow money off of me sometimes. i think she has always had to borrow money off me when ever i have had it...
i know people r going to b thinking about the fact i went on 2 holidays this year and stuff.. but thats because my uncle pays for them.. and my mum just pays for us to get there and back.. and that is £26 ...
i really dont know what to do
i just wanna cry
i really am trying on my work.. but.. i just cant do it... *cries*
my mum sai if i was to quite sixthform.. then i would definatly have to get a job.. but then i doubt i would b able to cope with that either
arggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i dunno wat to do
at school.. i can cope with the maths.. thats fine.. the biology is ok ish... well, some of it is... tut the chemistry.. im like.. WTF... i cant drop anymore lessons.. cos they wouldnt keep me there if i did.. i really have no idea what to do
meh.. i just wanna give up but i want a future with the girl i like... meep.. thats what im living for right now.. im trying so hard to b ok.. but.. i really dont know what to do anymore
i dont know what im expecting from this.. i suppose i just needed to get it out... im sorry..
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5/11/06, 14:45
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when i dont have lessons.. the teachers r teaching anyway!!!
and its bills and stuff my mum has and stuff..
the only reason i have internet and my mobile is cos I pay for it...
its not that easy.. uve made it sound so simple.. and it isnt... i have already dropped lessons.. and am doing less than everyone else in sixthform... but i just cannot cope..
and what am i supposed to do when i know my mums going to end up losing the house?!?!?
am i just supposed to not worry bout it???
what does it matter anyway... i will just have to carry on going till i get kicked out.. which is close to happeing anyway... oh wel...
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5/11/06, 15:35
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Re: 6th form...
that never stopped my teachers from helping out their pupils, normally if you ask them at the end of a lesson even...can i please come in at some point because i'm stuck or i dont understand? some teachers depending how nice would give up half of their lunch time just to help. Also have you ever tried bite-size it simplifies things quite well, i used it for my standard grades and highers.
I never said to drop any more classes. And i never said it was easy. Things are difficult when you're stressed/depressed/have to take time out. Another thing is approaching it negatively really wont help, i'm not saying its easy to change the thinking, it just makes things seem much harder much worse.
They probably wont kick you out unless you truant and do something drastic, as long as you're trying theres not much else they can do. Why do you think that they will kick you out?
I was doing less than people in my fifth year too because i couldnt handle maths at all, that and the teacher hated me lol.
You dont know for sure, my parents always say "oh we could lose the house..." but we never do, we're still in this house...they even say that I shouldnt worry about it because its their bills and their debt that they are the parents and they will sort it out.
Can your mum not take out a loan to pay the bills or has she already done so? Has she phoned around for all options available? A loan is never good but you can pay back as much as you can at a time.
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5/11/06, 15:51
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i know of a few loans my mum has... we sometimes have to ignor people at the door and stuff cos they have come to colect money from my mum and stuff.
and the lesson im having most problems with.. is with a teacher that hates me.. and i have been told by the head of sixthform.. that i amVERY close to being kickex out.. cos then there would b space for people who actually attend school.!
so yeah.. i know im close to being kicked out..
im scared that whe i go in tomorrow.. they will say something.. and im so behind with school work..my chemistry teacher is horrible.. i had her last year and the year before for GCSE and she doesnt like me meh...
i just wanna give up now..
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5/11/06, 16:10
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no.. i just mean.. if i wasnt here.. she would prob end up like.. living with my aunt or something... i couldnt see her living here alone...(although.. it kinda seems they r thinking bout that anyway...my mum wants to move to south devon with my aunt and uncle and cousins... meh... )
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5/11/06, 16:43
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and you would be moving with her right?
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5/11/06, 16:46
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hmmm.. yeah... but i dont want to move... shes saying bout moving when we sort the house out and stuff... meep.. i would then b further away from the person i love
hmmm.. i think thats another reason why my mum saying bout it.. meh.. oh well..
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5/11/06, 17:07
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