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LOST FOR WORDS ???
There was a time if I had a problem, there was no one I could go to. Not because I had no one to talk too, but because, I didn't know how to, or was too afraid to. I used to bottle everything up, and I mean everything. It got to the point where some people used to think that I was cold, even my mum. When I started to feel comfortable, in a way were I could express myself, if and, when I felt that there was a problem, things just got more confusing. Some would see it as weakness and look down at me. Some would think that I couldn't handle it, and should just give in. Some would just give me bad advice, and laught as I made things worse. Nowadays I can sort out my own problems, with the wisdom too know how to seek for advice or guidance and who to avoid, the ability to take note of whats said and work things out for myself. Yet with somethings in lifeI'm no better off, than when I was a teenager. getting questionable advice from people. I'm know I'm showing far too much emotion. Feel the need sometimes to bottle it up and hide it yet, worried if I do that, people will think me cold and not careing. I used to be pretty good at helping people, know I question the myself. asking myself are you really helping or are you making it worse. I'm getting to the point were I'm lost for words, I don't know what to say half the time. I got note of this site from a friend. yet I don't even know what to say half the the time. knowing theres problems. Sometimes thinking that maybe I'm the problem. I've came on too this site a few times with the wanting to say something, get it off my chest, and this is the best I can do. The need for some genuine advice from people that have only got my best inttentions at heart, people with no hidden plans or desires. I can't talk about the things I want to say. Don't know how to at the moment, I'm just lost for words. 
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19/12/06, 23:28
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