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My Mountain.
well there you go.......
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Re: My Mountain.
By the way, for whatever reason, my litle fascination I guess, it's 6.15a.m. in my home, on Wednesday the 18th.
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Re: My Mountain.
From: George Harrison
To: Those who choose to listen.
Any Road Brainwashed Album.
Oh Ive been travelling on a boat and a plane
In a car on a bike with a bus and a train
Travelling there and travelling here
Everywhere in every gear
But oh Lord we pay the price with a
Spin of the wheel with a roll of a dice
And if you dont know where youre going
Any road will take you there
And Ive been travelling through the dirt
And the grime
From the past to the future through the
Space and the time
Travelling deep beneath the waves in
Watery grottoes and mountainous caves
But oh Lord weve got to fight
With the thoughts in the head with dark
And the light
No use to stop and stare
And if you dont know where youre going
Any road will take you there.
You may not know where you came from
May not know who you are
May not have even wondered how
You got this far
Ive been travelling on a wing and a prayer
By the skin of my teeth by the breadth of a hair
Travelling where the four winds blow
With the sun on my face in the ice
And the snow
But oooeeee its a game
Youre lame
Ah yeah its somewhere
And if you dont know where youre going any road will take you there.
But oh Lord we pay the price
With the spin of the wheel with the roll of
The dice
Ah yeah, you pay your fare
And if you dont know where youre going
Any road will take you there
I keep travelling around the bend
There was no beginning, there is no end
It wasnt born and never dies
There are no edges, there is no side
Oh yeah, you dont just win
Its so far out the out is in
Bow to god and call him Sir
But if you dont know where youre going
Any road will take you there
I absolutely adore this song, I can so relate to it. Particularly now that I do know that any road will take you there, there is here for me, its inside of me, its Me. Doesnt matter where I turn, which direction I travel, Ill always come back to the same point, inside of ME. The answers are here, with me.
Its so far outthe out is in How true is that?
There is another that I find relevant off the same album that I will post a little later.
Smile, be happy and flow freely.
Felicity.
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Re: My Mountain.
Well, after my huge dummy spit, i.e. me being flickchic, I've decided to give it another go. I haven't written in my own personal journey for months and I now feel it time to pick up the pieces. I have moved from Perth to a small country town, well 3.2acres outside of it acutally and I am in my element as far as my natural surroundings go. I Have been at a loss within though having given up some precious time with two of my children for the time being. My partner has increased his time away to three weeks at a time and then one week home. I became so lost, sitting in my self misery I forgot that I have myself, and do of course have my youngst child, now 4 and the older two drop every now and again. Most important factor though I gave up my journey of self. My mountain has an enormous dark cave, which last week I sprialled into the pits of, so deep I wanted out, the easy way of course, I haven't been that lost for over three years now and gosh it was so scary. I obviously hadn't accepted the changes to my life. After having come such a long way on my journey in the last three years, leaving all the domestic violence behind, as much as I wanted this new move I resented the change and have only just come to realise it. It was my dream, to be back in natural, gum trees galore, a winter creek, ****ies, galahs, magpies etc in abundance, chooks, dog, pet galah, now 5 chickens, a beautiful big home and surrounding garden, full of roses, and orchard with at least thirty fruit trees, I mean who could ask for more? It will be my dream, when I am with myself again and not a separated soul. I appreciate it don't get me wrong, I just so often finding myself wishing I had stayed put in my dowdy little house in Perth at least I was happy with the kids there. Happy with work and the direction I had. I finally came to realise a few weeks ago that I was allowed to grieve for what I'd given up. I guess because my dream had been planted at my feet I felt it so very wrong of me to feel sad at what I'd actually given up, which also included a large network of community pals and of course daily access to a couple of close friends, whom I do catch up with when I go down to Perth.
christmas time was an absolute nightmare for me, my eldest two children went to adelaide for 3 weeks with their dad and I put on a brave front and encouraged them both to go as their grandparents are over their as is the bulk of their cousins etc., it's beenf our years since they've been so I wanted them to go. At the same token I completely denied myself the pain it caused me. As for the other three it was their dad's turn for Xmas eve so here was I a mum of five with no-one xmas morning, my partner was away at work. Same deal, tried to put on a brave face, and accept the "so be it". Well "bollocks" to that! I was so lost and I've hated christmas for years anyway. Something did come out of it for me though; I did search for why it has bothered me for so many years, I now know it has to do with the abuse from my dad, I haven't as yet found the complete memories or images, I do however know that it wasn't something a father ought be giving to his daughter for Christmas or any other time for that matter, at the tender age of six.
I never thought I'd hit a "rock bottom" again, obviously there are different levels of that for each of us, my last one three years ago was far worse, I wasn't very happy with myself for having gone any where near there again though. I wrote a piece earlier under denial with regards to my big rage last week, I do recall during that fit of rage threatening to take my life, I know I owuldn't have I KNOW I have much to live for, it scared me though to have even thought it after all this time let alone expressed it aloud. I'll have to dig around that one a little more I feel to find the answers, I think i have them, will hold off expressing it until I'm certain though.
To John an apology for my spit and withdrawl of past entries, yes, very childish of me, I felt exposed and couldn't deal with it.
I've often checked in on the board and gone to add again and couldn't bring myself to. I have missed the freedom of expression though and the support I recieved. It was appreciated. Thankyou.
Failure is the opportunity to begin again more intelligently.
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Hi shadywhisper,
I felt it was you when I read your earlier post. WELCOME BACK! 
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